I acted like it's not a big deal, but inside me, it's breaking me.

When i see you, i fly.

But the next time i see you, i fall.

Not because i doesn't want to see you.

Simply because you done something else.

I hope that it was me who judged wrongly.

Well, today.. Hmm.. School was fine. Saw polar bear after my maths class. I literally scream when i saw him. I'm lucky that the class was abit noisy or else it will be awkard. And during English lesson, Shermin, Debbie, Vanessa was using phone. All of their phone was confiscated. But teacher didn't notice that i was using too. Maybe she was giving me face. After 10 mins or so, teacher confiscated mine, for 3 mins, then returned to me. HEHEHE.

After school.. Have peer tutoring. Went opposite to buy food before studying since i'm hungry. Went with Bivian, Vanessa, Angiela, Huiying and Shermin. Saw Polar Bear, Eggyolk, Elmo.. Teacher talking to them. Hope that it's not about them smoking..

Then went to coffee shop and eat. And the view where i'm sitting, i can see polar bear clearly! Hehe. After we eat, they went to one of the block and climbed the stairs... Me and Angie look at each other. Hesitate for a while. We didn't dare to say a word. Then started crying. Went to where they walk and find them, but couldn't.. Go up to maths class and couldn't concentrate doing work.. Went to toilet to emo. Then Vanessa called me and say Polar Bear is now at school opposite. Angie and me ran down. Saw them. But this time, feel sadder than before.. SIGH.

Taekwondo! Haha, had fun with cherrie. We trained till our butt muscles are pain while doing side kick.. Was so... Omg. Hehe. We both talked about our crush:) Haha, she's my best friend since p1.. But different school:( P6, we quarrelled. And only recently, we talked. Omg, i just miss her. Well that's all!:)

Goodnight Kim Hyun Joong. I love you.

We have voices, stories, plans, dreams, idea, hope, too. We will wake up to a day that has never been known. Living a life that has never been lived. 

So, don't give up easily.

No matter how hard or how much obstacles is in your way,

there's always hope.

When there's a will, 

there's a way.

But if you choose to give up,

there's nothing left.

After all these 4 months, in school. Friendship problem and all. I learnt some things. And analyse humans reaction to different kind of things. I also find out that i not only want to be a dancer, physiotherapist. I also want to be a forensic, designer, lecturer, camp instructor, actor, police officer. And alot more. Too much.  But i won't give up in any of them :) My aim in life is to climb the mount everest.

School was ohkay this few days:) Quite fun! Had quarrel abit here and there. But all of us still ended up as best friends! And i also just realise that more and more secrets from different people in our clique are in me! Hehe. wow! They trust me! woohoo. But to my best friends, i'm sorry if you ask some questions and i will say that it's a secret. Not because i don't trust you. But it's because i can't break the trust of the particular friend that told me the secret. :)

Haha, I'm gonna really really try my best for exams! And after exams, i'll be going outing with almost ALL of my friends. hehe. I promised all of you, i'll do it.

Bivian, hehe, i still remember i owe you an outing and a birthday present! :)

Umi, hehe. Our shopping yea?

Cherrie, hehehe. It's been like.... 2 years? We really have to buy bag, clothes, dress, heels, shoes, and accessories! 

Hhaha. I love Kim Hyun Joong! 

Q: If you were to choose between singing and acting, which one will you choose?

Kim Hyun Joong: Choosing these 2 it's like choosing your mum and dad. It's hard.

SOOOOOOOO EFFING CUTE. I LOVE HIM!

Happy Birthday 80th Grandma! :)

 When i was one..

 You always carried me in your arms.

 Like I'm your most precious thing in the world. 

Carried me close to you heart.

The warmth in you, 

made me feel safe.

You smiled.

When i was ten.

In china.

You didn't say you want to take a pic with me.

You say nothing.

Just put your arms around me,

you didn't smile.

You seldom smile.

But, i know.

Inside you, your smiling.

When i was fourteen.

And you're eighty.

Came to my house.

Sat there on the sofa. 

Quietly.

But smiling.

I love you.

This was supposed to be post on the 20th of april. Didn't manage to blog cause can't use computer.:(

Happy Birthday Bivian! Love you bitch.

It's Bivian's birthday today! :) While i'm blogging, i just effing realise i never take any pictures with her:( Haha, soon bitch! After exams. I owe you a present from me and Vanessa and an outing! PROMISED. The reason why we have to delay our present cause me and Van wanted to buy you a special thing! But i can't really go out before exams, and i don't want to just buy you something that's easy to get. yea. haha. Let me say something bout you:)

Well, you and your elmo! Haha, i know you love him. Like i how i like Polar Bear. Just afew ago. Before we got closer. I thought, you were a bitch, the friends you mixed with, your attitude, your language. I really really really hate you to the max! Till i always avoid talking to you. But you prove me wrong. I was wrong, to judge you. I saw your other side:) You care for your close friends. And the way you treat your close friends. IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM HOW YOU BEHAVE! Hehe.

You like Elmo.

I like Polar Bear.

Angiela like eggyolk.

Vanessa like chocolate.

Shermin like karrot.

Wileen like doraemon.

Huiying like buahahah.

Debbie like barney.

Rouying like herself! Haha

People always can't be satisfied. When they get in the 2nd place, they'll blame themselves for not getting the 1st. And when they get into the 1st plave, they'll regret not doing better than what they did.

Accept people for who they are.

You don't like their attitude?

It's your problem. 

Not theirs. 

They don't live to please you.

Haha, didn't blog for the past few days. Didn't really have time.. When you see me tweeting or facebooking, i'm studying also.:) So during saturday, went for grandma's early birthday celebration. FORGOT TO BRING MY CAMERA:( Argh. And that day, my hair isn't really nice like today's... But i can see ALL of our cousins were very happy!

School was normal also.. For the past 2 weeks, my terms with Rouying isn't really good. But getting better!:) I just love her. ALOT. haha. I think the only person i can tell my secrets to is her, Umi and Moniyyka. Not because i trust the rest. But for the past 3 months, i've been real close to her. And always tell her all my secrets. But now, maybe Bivian, Vanessa. :)

Went home with Umi today. Chit chat about boys.. And stuffs. hehe. Well, 6 days didn't see Polar Bear... Never mind! :)

Yes, but i've got limits. 

I will somehow somewhat break.

It's just a matter of time.

Today, forgot to bring my phone to school. :( But never mind! I can leave without it ohkay! Haha. School was just another day. Just that didn't see him for the whole day.. I don't feel ohkay.. And i became moody.. Sorry friends! Not attitude uhh, it's just somewhat emo.:)) I'm ohkay now! Eye infection was ohkay yesterday. Started wearing contacts today. But soon whole eye became red. So took it off. Went for lunch at mac with Rouying,Debbie and Vanessa. Bivian couldn't tag along cause she has basketball training :(( Will go out with you soon on your birthday kay! <3 Still thinking of what to buy for that bitch for her birthday :) Had fun at mac. Got cheered up by the 3 of them. Hehe, so fun to be with them :D

Having Taekwondo soon.... 

Can't wait for tomorrow! Grandma's 80th birthday! Going to the restaurant and can finally meet ALL my cousins!! WOOHOO. Can't wait to give Grandma her present man!! 

Hehhe, Adam <3 Melissa <3 :)

Pau :) He wanted to take with me :P 

AWW. The people i love!

ADAM <3

Haha, this girl cry her eyes out, and still wanted to take picture with me! <3

HAHA, our signature <3

Well, will not be blogging so often after today:(( Need to study. Today had fun! We had party during drama... Some of the sec fours cried, as it was their last Drama session :(( We'll go out soon! :) Of course after going out with my bitches :) Rachel! I can't wait to go out with you after exams!

Saw Polar Bear once. Not happy seeing him. Not sad either. I'll not hope:) Just like. Better this way hehe. Went home with Moniyyka and Umi. Walked under the rain... Having headache now :( 

Chatted with Cherrie on facebook. She's having friendship problems :( Cheer up girl :)

Ohh well. I'll concentrate on studies!

I don't know why.

I don't know how.

I don't know when.

I don't know why.

I don't know who.

Haha, haven't been blogging. Lazy :p

Well, cut my hair :(

The hairdresser cut my hair way too short :/

Well nevermind.

Eye infection again, but still continue wearing contacts :)

So today, school was fine, didn't see him. Again. I won't let go:) Haha, don't ask me why. Cause i stated above. Went to Science Centre to make ice cream! Haha, damn fun. Ate my own ice cream, it turned out nice:) After that, Shermin, Wileen, Debbie, Vanessa, Miranda, Stephanie and I went to eat dinner at IMM, wanted to eat Mac in the first place, but went to eat Pepper Lunch in the end. NICE! haha. 

Thanks Shermin for helping with my blogskin :) I love you bitch <3

Well, you heard what this guy in the video says?

He says ' don't give up, do NOT give up'

Well, this guy's hand was stuck inbetween the big rock, and he couldn't take it out. And his last resort was, to cut off his hand. He's brave. 

Today, i didn't see Polar Bear... Met Umi at Jurong MRT. And ate Mr Bean for breakfast. Waited for Angie and Wendy. Was almost late for school. The moment we reach the place where our class is seated, we have to sing the Anthem. Such a good timing! But i didn't see Polar Bear in his class..

Recess, hoping he would come, but never... Talent show, i know he didn't come to school. But still waited for him to turn up... :)

Thanks Shermin for the skin!!<3

I die a little inside knowing you still like her.

I didn't know why shouldn't i be happy.

I'm not jealous. 

But, sad instead.

I really shouldn't set my hopes too high, 

hope too much,

wish too much,

dream too much. 

And end up being the lost one.

Well, didn't see Polar Bear at the hall... During Mother Tongue class, teacher didn't come. We do one exercise of the work book, and went facebooking and tweeting. I'm like addicted to twitter.. Since he often tweet.

Failed maths test.. Like BADLY. Chose Zhihao as my tutor as those weaker ones need to have one. And for today, i really pay attention during maths lesson! Halfway through, Junliang texted me. Haha, catch up a little.

During recess, i hoped Polar Bear will walk pass... But he didn't:( Talked with Bivian, Vanessa and Rachael.. And almost cried because of some stuffs. But didn't :) 

English... Was just another boring period as usual.

Mr Goh: I'm going to show you a funny video afterwards.

Huixin: Cher! You sure funny or not!

*Whole class laughs!

The video really turn out funny!Cheer me a little bit haha.

Lunch... Hmmm. Was hoping Polar Bear will walk past again. And he did! When everybody told me, 'Chanel, Behind you!' I know it was him, i smile a little. But i didn't know whether to turn back and look at him or not.. But i had a glanced of him of his front view for 1 time. And when he turns around, i look at him longer.. He likes my good friend.. From last year till now :(

Then during Geog class, Shermin, Wileen, Debbie, Maggie and I keep talking loudly during his lesson and pissed him off. The way he scolds people is very funny!

*Mr Low blocking Miranda

Miranda: Cher, you're not that thin you know....

*Class laughs

Huixin: EH! You very straight forward leh, haha

Maynine: HAHA! Miranda, you didn't disappoint me! 

haha, epic..

Only saw Polar Bear once today... I'm not going to tweet bout him anymore... Not anymore. Promised.

Haha, Adam <3  Qifen <3 I love the both of them:)

Haha, today... Saw Polar Bear at hall... He was literally walking here and there :)

Literature class.. Hmm.. Had quiz. Ms Nora giving sweets to the top scorer. And she was hugging her can of sweets.. Then Zhihao wanted to try and reach out for sweets.

Ms Nora: Don't touch it! ( Boobs) My husband will be jealous!

*Whole Class burst into laughter.

During English class, those who never do homework needs to write ' I will remember to do homework in future' for 2 pages LOL. Didn't know that Secondary Schools teacher still need to use this kind of ways to tell students to hand up homework.

Mr Goh: Who's from Vietnam?

Whole class: Maggie....!!

Mr Goh: I have something to say, correct me if i'm wrong.

Rouying: JOKE OF THE YEAR!!

Shermin, Rouying and I laughed.

Mr Goh: * Speaks in Vietnamese

*Silence

Class: Huh???

Maggie: Yup. Correct.

Mr Goh: Then how will you reply?

Maggie: * Pauses for awhile. I don't know lehh. 

Hhahahaha.

Today, had Drama. It was fun!! Haha. Planned for the BBQ next wednesday.. And was incharge of food.. Chit chat and laughed... Played with Joshua's canon camera. Haha. Was fun, but he took it away from me after 20 mis :( Then end at 4pm.. Happened to pass by basketball court. Netball having match. See for awhile and went to buy bubble tea and decided to go back and watch the match again:) Haha, Westwood was good. Haha, but Bukit Merah is also good!!! Walked to MRT station with Adam and Umi. Then, Adam is going to tiong to meet his friend. So Umi and I went home:) Chatted along the way. YAY! Umi will be painting my nails next wednesday for me!! Today, i lost my sense of balance for don't know what reason =.= In train, i look like a person who's drunk. Keep losing my balance and fall here and there... Haha, ohh well.

To Qifen, If you’re feeling frightened about what comes next, don’t be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness, don’t waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you’ll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart where your hope lives. You’ll find you’re way again. :) Don't worry girl.

I can't help it but keep looking at you when you walk past. 

I can't help it but keep turning around just to find you in the hall.

I can't help it but whine when you're not around.

I. Just. Can't. Help. It.

Haha, eye infection is better now:) Wore grey contacts now since the brown one has been tore by me :p Reached school at 7.15am... While walking up to hall, saw Polar Bear! He was also walking up to the hall. Haha, then i wanted to scream so much that i climbed the stairs 2 by 2. And i walked real fast!

Haha, today for assembly, cher talked about alcohol.. And my mum often says alcohol harm your body, and i didn't take it really seriously, cause sometimes, she's just exaggerating.. But today, i just learn that alcohol harms your brain and the more you drink, the more your brain will shrink! And in future, it will be harder for you to concentrate and remember things... And it's also a kind of drug. A legal drug...  Hmm... I should really drink lesser. LOL. Might not be even drinking anymore. And saw Polar Bear's twit. He says, Alcohol is bad and yet i'm considering to drink with my friend! Haha, hope he won't drink. :)Then Polar Bear went on stage to receive prize! HEH!

Then during maths class.. OMG. I totally pissed ZhiHao off ;D He keep teaching and teaching and i still can't solve it :(  And the whole 1 hour, he was teaching me 3 sums. ONLY. And he haven't done anything. SORRY ZHIHAO! And Thanks :) And said, you MUST remember this formula because this is VERY VERY VERY. And he paused. You didn't know what to say. Then i continued. Clearly. Then he replied. Ya. Haha. EPIC FAIL. And also, when he's scolding me, i'm literally laughing away. Cause when he's angry, IT'S REALLY FUNNY.

Then during PE, played football. We had to form into groups to warm up and practise our kick. Shermin, Wileen, Debbie, Rouying, Jingyin and I were in a group. And we formed a circle. Then, when it's Wileen's turn to kick the ball, it flew all the way to the other end where Daniel is. And we told Daniel to kick it back. And his style of kicking is EXACTLY the same as Wileen! Haha. And the cycle keep repeating. O.0 The stuff that Wileen always do is ALWAYS VERY CUTE. Then teacher released us early to give us a break to buy drinks. And we went to the vending machine. Polar Bear happened to be there! Haha. He was like right behind me!

When we're having English lesson, we had our test first. I. Didn't. Learn. :( I left the whole paper BLANK :( And Mr Goh told us, That he thought that 'LOL' stands for Lots Of Love. 

* Whole class laughs

Huixin: Cher! Finally you joke is funny leh! ( Which wasn't meant to be one)

* Whole class laugh harder

EPIC RIGHT. Stupid teacher.

After School, walked home with Qifen, Maynine and Jiahui. Haha. Bought Bubble Tea. And Polar Bear was beside me :P Hahahahahahha. I'm sooo happy! Saw him for like 8 times. Went home and.... FACEBOOK! TWEET! And blog. Haha.

Well, if you don't like me, say it.

It's really a coward bitching about me with you friends, you know.

And when in school, you still talks to me.

And when i turn around, i know what is on that face of yours:)

LOOK WHAT I'VE FOUND.

My mum and dad went to their room, and when they came out, i have a bread on my hand, i have no idea where does this come from :/

This is literally how i do cheessssssseeeeeeee. LOL

Hah, went to wear my dad's shoes when he left it somewhere.

Haha, my parent said this was what i always do:P

Ohh well. So, haha, it has been a few days since i last blog. Let me start from.. THURSDAY!

During English class, Mr Goh said, here's a joke.

Class: ohh joke..

After finishing the joke.

Jiahui: So that's the joke you're talking about?

Maynine: OHH.

Jialing: Funny meh? I don't find it funny.

Chanel: My joke better than yours luh! The panties one ( Not sick)

Shermin:=.=

Rouying ._.

Haha, epic right. The Mr Goh have nothing but lame jokes. =.= 

Then, after school, go bubble tea shop with Qifen and Maynine. Maynine was so hungry that she ate 2 cup noodles and one milo dino. And she said: DON'T CALL ME PIG!

Qifen: PIG! 

haha, epic also right?

Then, friday. After school, went to watch the talent show before gong for rehearsal. Then Polar Bear came! Then I became nervous =.= And Bivian keep looking at me.  Then Polar Bear was scary! One moment, he was on my left, the other moment, he was behind me. Haha!!! 

On saturday, It was the actual speech day. Then went it's our turn to act, I FORGOT MY KETCHUP! Then i went backstage to take my ketchup.. Kena scolded :( Then, there's some problem with my mic, can't seemed to on it. AND THE WHOLE SCHOOL LAUGHED =.= And i found out Polar Bear didn't come :(:( After that, went to Queensway with Bivian, Angiela, Vanessa, Shermin, Huiying, Linxuan. Went to eat laksa. Then we walked around Queensway, i think we make too much noise and one of the shop owner there say : eh! Which school you all from uhh, i call you teacher!

Then Bivian say : Henderson. HAHAHAHA!

Went to anchor point cause Queensway was bored. Went home at 1plus.

Today, woke up at 11. Ate breakfast. Wanted to cut hair but the shop was closed:( And online for the whole day :D

Polar Bear is always appearing offline!! ;( Can't chat with him... And i created a twitter account since Angiela say Polar Bear is always on twitter! HAHA

Well, that's all:)