Don't try to be another somebody else.

I'm quite thankful that i don't have many readers here, cuz if not i don't have privacyyyy. HAHAHA

I realized people often act like somebody else and deceive themselves. Reason being, some, they hate themselves, while others want to be another person. Why blend in when you can stand out? Imagine if everybody in the world acts like that, this world will be fake.

1)Himmmmm

Hey. I like you. But what can i do? I'm too young. You don't like me. You will never like me. K i finish saying. Bye.

2)School

I wish someone understands it's tough this year. My mum always expect me to do this and that. But she don't know how hard am i struggling. Of course, sometimes she will allow me to rest and all. Hahahahaha.

It's tough. Doing homework, revising. Sometimes, there's no time for me to breath. 

Common test last week and this coming week. Amath, Emath(Class test), lit, physics, Bio. All in one week. It's good that i can do majority of the questions. But for physics, im afraid i will fail. 

This coming week, there's Emath, P.Chem, MT, English and SS. I'm prepared for everything except for SS and MT! Gosh! I really hope i will not disappoint myself again like what i always did. :((

3)Me

My hair looks black here :( NO FAIR.

My hair is growing! And my black hair can be seeeen. It's so fucking obvious and ugly!! Seriously :( Might be dyeing again in the march hols! Hehe, but might be aiming towards a darker brown. ;D AND, also at the same time to cover my white hair. JEEEZ. I realized i have a few strains of white hair! NOOOOO. What's happening?! I'm only 14 for goodness sake! 

I'm thinking of cutting my hair short. Like when i was in sec 1! Remember?! I think almost everybody forgot. Heeeeeehh. Concave hairstyle ;D But Van and Shermin told me it's kinda troublesome every morning cuz your hair doesn't always listen to you, when you wake up, there's a huge possibility that your hair might curve to the wrong side. SO HOW?! But i seriously want a new look :( 

I don't really wear contacts now anymoreee. Cuz of dry eyes. So saddddd. Maybe i should try a different brand. Freshlook. SHALL I?! 

4)You

This was on my birthday last year. Remember? 

You actually cared. When none of my friends bothered to celebrate with me. 

You actually bothered. When you knew i was struggling. 

You actually sensed. When something was not right with me. 

You actually ensure that i'm alright everyday during the hols last year by texting me everyday.

Our first time meeting.

Imissyou. :( It's killing me. You are one of the few people in my life i really cared. But we're like strangers now.

To readers who don't know who am i:

FYI, i'm not someone who likes 2 guys at the same time, though polar bear and panda are both guys, it's a complete different thing. I'm saying this becuz i went to read my blog when i'm bored, and realize i blog as though i like 2 guys. LOL. If you know what's my relationship with Polarbear and Panda, good for you. If not, you don't have to know so much. I'm just saying becuz i don't want you guys to misunderstand.