I don't know what the fuck I'm doing at 2am now. It's been long since I slept this late. I just can't sleep and kept on thinking about unnecessary problems. While I was on my study table alone doing my work and revision, something hit me in my head hard.
I'm working really hard, so are the rest who'll be taking O's. I've never studied so hard before, always being the happy go lucky kind of girl. And I believe this goes to the majority out there. Teacher says nothing is impossible if you work hard-getting good grades, topping the class etc. The thing is, everyone is working hard, working their asses off, fighting for the 'first position' or 'top', but there will only be that one and only person who will be at that position. The rest, though everyone knows they worked hard, or maybe harder, might not be able to achieve their goals despite the amount of effort being put in.
They say nothing else matters as long as I try we try our best. But what if results are not what we expected? In the end, grades are not how much effort you put in, but how well you done for the test.
It's really tough when my best, is never good enough.
