Going through one of the most painful phase in life one will ever have. Was working yesterday and found out something (again) during my break. Wasn't really in a good mood but tried really hard to be hyper like I normally am, especially when most of the full timers were like telling me to smile and all. And I really got hyper! Like with Rochell, Yan, Shukira, Kimie and Zainul! Like totally.
But as time pass, the clock was nearing 1am, I started to panic. Literally. Thinking of all the consequences and the replies I will get as I switch on my phone. Then I somehow flare at on of my seniors becuz I can't get things done, one of the worst thing I've done this year. Oh god why.
I didn't exactly notice/realise what I did until I reflect about my actions later at night in the cab on my way home. My mind was pretty empty, but then again, occupied, which explains why I was so short tempered earlier on. I swear I felt so bad and guilty I wanted to run back and apologise. Sigh but what's done, can't be undone right. Can't wait for the next working day and apologise.
Fuck this shit.