Cross Country!! :D

Last year

Adam and IIIIII

Mnablaq!

Shermin, Rouying, Wileen, Debbie and I.

I didn't change much. RIGHT?! ;D

This year

Time seriously past so fast~

Yeah, you know me. I forced Manpreet to take this pic. HAH. HAH. HAH.

We had cross country this year at Chinese and Japanese garden! Hmm... Let's talk about the run!

Ran alone at the start together with Rouying and Huixin. We were few of the last people (excluding those who are walking) at the start when we are running cuz we know we can't take it. Then 2 mins later, i realised i'm not with them anymoree. So i ran alone. Lonely much!! :(( After 10mins, spot Debbie stopped running. She went to one side and bend down. OF COURSE I HAVE TO STOP AND SEE WHAT HAPPEN, SHE'S MY FRIEND. So she told me she has asthma, i told her to stop running, but she insist to continue. Reason being, we're reaching the ending point.  She did told me to run first, but i stayed with her.

We ended up walking, running, walking, running. Each time we walk, we would turn behind and see who's catching up. When somebody is catching up, we would be like 'faster faster! Who and Who is coming!' hahahahaha. Then each time we run, we would say 'I cannot already, want to die liao.' Which is quite true to me. I feel like i'm lacking of oxygen and my chest is so fucking tight. And we would stop again. This cycle continues. Until, when we are about to turn right, we met a ST.John's member. We asked her, 'how long more' and she replied, 'the ending point is just right infront.' Without hesitating, i just ran as fast as i could to the ending point. I kept think Debbie was beside me. In actual fact, i pangseh-ed her. I'm so very sorry Debbie. I didn't do it on purpose. 

I reached the finishing line before her, and collapsed. Followed by her. We both collapse. 2 teachers carried us up. I feel that i can't breathe, and i can't see anything. It was only after a few seconds then i regain my sight, and saw Moniykka looking at me. It was so embarrassing ohkay! I wanted to go back to my seat, but i can't find my bag -.- And end up going to the place where sec one sat. Seriously? HAHAHA im so blur. Immediately sat down cuz i'm feeling very giddyyyy.

When Theresia and the 'Walking Group' came back, i haven't cool down yet. LOL. When i cooled down, HHEHEHEHE. CAMWHOREEEEEEEEEEE.

THERESIAAAA. Look at our face. After running! ^^

Yeap! That is meeee. Got 9th position ;D Medals only given to top 15. (Not showing off. LOL. That's why i said i'm glad not to have so many readers.) I'm so effing happy!!! GOSH! Cuz i came in 17th last year! I improved. Right!? But this year, Falcon(greenhouse) lost :( Again. We lost to eagle(red) Again. F man! For the sec ones, there's only 2 falcon who came in top 15! Seriously?! OMGOMGOMG.

After this, Went to JP with Shermin and Adam. Ate mac! Hehehe, was craving for it! But after i ordered mac, i told them, i feel like eating Swensens. Hahahhahaha. They both were talking about kpop ALL THE WAY. So i just had to eat my food. So lonely right?! I swear i won't go out with them alone. I will pull someone who is not a kpop fan, to accompany me! Hehesss. After eating, Van came to meet us! Bought KOI at jurong, YUMYUM. Ohh ya! We also bought friendship band :) Then went to my place. 

Camwhoreeeee. Muahahaha. Shermin haven't upload some of the pic, so shall wait for her to upload, then i'll update this post again!

Adaaaam

AHA! We nuaaahhhhhhh. I know i'm lame. Im this lame. If you can't stand me, shooooooooo.

Shermin and Adam! 

Don't have the picture with Vanessa cuz it's in Shermin's phone i guess! Hahaha seriously, we had LOTSSS of fun! 

They stayed at my place till 8plus 9! But Vanessa went off earlier cuz she's meeting her friend! Talked about our sec 1 camp, cuz we're going for Bintan camp this coming sunday! I'm soooo eggcited. Alright! Bye peeps! I'm gonna touch up on my SS. 

There's SS test tomorrrrooooowwwwww. WAIT. ILOVEPOLARBEAR. Kinda upset that he didn't come for cross country. When i was reaching the finishing point, i actually imagined that he was there. A bit dramatic, but yeah.

And, i actually ran when i know i have injuries on my ankle and knee. Didn't heed Jiahui's advice, to buy Knee and ankle guard. And didn't heed Yuting's advice, she told me not to run, but i insist on running. Shit. So now, when i walk, my ankle and knee actually hurt a little. I should have listen to them especially Yuting :((

Talking about Yuting, i feel so bad! I pangseh-ed her that day after cross country cuz i was supposed to meet her in the evening for a run! And at the same time meet her Ahem. But i injured my ankle :( NOOOOOO. I don't care. I'm gonna go out with her and catch up soon since she's not working soon. Been a long time since we met :( Cuz she workworkwork. I schoolschoolschool. Can you imagine we know each other for quite a long time and go out for countless times but we didnt took a single picture?!

Ohkay, readers, wait for the day Yuting and I hang out, and i'll spam my blog with out pictures! We will be 2 bitches Zilian-ing like crazy! MUAHAHHAA.

Don't try to be another somebody else.

I'm quite thankful that i don't have many readers here, cuz if not i don't have privacyyyy. HAHAHA

I realized people often act like somebody else and deceive themselves. Reason being, some, they hate themselves, while others want to be another person. Why blend in when you can stand out? Imagine if everybody in the world acts like that, this world will be fake.

1)Himmmmm

Hey. I like you. But what can i do? I'm too young. You don't like me. You will never like me. K i finish saying. Bye.

2)School

I wish someone understands it's tough this year. My mum always expect me to do this and that. But she don't know how hard am i struggling. Of course, sometimes she will allow me to rest and all. Hahahahaha.

It's tough. Doing homework, revising. Sometimes, there's no time for me to breath. 

Common test last week and this coming week. Amath, Emath(Class test), lit, physics, Bio. All in one week. It's good that i can do majority of the questions. But for physics, im afraid i will fail. 

This coming week, there's Emath, P.Chem, MT, English and SS. I'm prepared for everything except for SS and MT! Gosh! I really hope i will not disappoint myself again like what i always did. :((

3)Me

My hair looks black here :( NO FAIR.

My hair is growing! And my black hair can be seeeen. It's so fucking obvious and ugly!! Seriously :( Might be dyeing again in the march hols! Hehe, but might be aiming towards a darker brown. ;D AND, also at the same time to cover my white hair. JEEEZ. I realized i have a few strains of white hair! NOOOOO. What's happening?! I'm only 14 for goodness sake! 

I'm thinking of cutting my hair short. Like when i was in sec 1! Remember?! I think almost everybody forgot. Heeeeeehh. Concave hairstyle ;D But Van and Shermin told me it's kinda troublesome every morning cuz your hair doesn't always listen to you, when you wake up, there's a huge possibility that your hair might curve to the wrong side. SO HOW?! But i seriously want a new look :( 

I don't really wear contacts now anymoreee. Cuz of dry eyes. So saddddd. Maybe i should try a different brand. Freshlook. SHALL I?! 

4)You

This was on my birthday last year. Remember? 

You actually cared. When none of my friends bothered to celebrate with me. 

You actually bothered. When you knew i was struggling. 

You actually sensed. When something was not right with me. 

You actually ensure that i'm alright everyday during the hols last year by texting me everyday.

Our first time meeting.

Imissyou. :( It's killing me. You are one of the few people in my life i really cared. But we're like strangers now.

To readers who don't know who am i:

FYI, i'm not someone who likes 2 guys at the same time, though polar bear and panda are both guys, it's a complete different thing. I'm saying this becuz i went to read my blog when i'm bored, and realize i blog as though i like 2 guys. LOL. If you know what's my relationship with Polarbear and Panda, good for you. If not, you don't have to know so much. I'm just saying becuz i don't want you guys to misunderstand.

Last week's outing with 2E last Sunday!

HAHAH, ignore my face. I just happened to have the mood to camwhore. LOLOLOL

THERESIAAAAAAAAAA! ♥ One of my BEST-EST-EST-EST CRAZIEST FRIEND! Gahhh i love herrrrr. She's pretty right?! Stop saying you're fat BODOOOOOOH.

Thereisaaaa and I! 

Jingyin and I! :))

See Thereisa and Jingyin! So crazy!

My sister came too!

The three of us! :) I have no fucking idea why ami slouching ._. And this is the only picture i have with them. Stupid right.

THE SCORES! Haha, Urgh, Robert confirm win one! I have no idea why i lost to Pavan in the last minute! Urgh! But look! I got spare and strike for the last 2 time ohkay! But i got zero for 2 times -.- don't know whats wrong with my arms.

Yeap! We went to Marina Square for bowling! This outing was actually called class outing. But alot can't turn up. And i mean alot. Prolly becuz this was kinda last minute! Only about 1/3 the class went. Let me name them... Theresia, Jingyin, Debbie, Rouying, Kennard, Delon, Dillon, Robert, Pavan, Daniel My sister and I. Very little right :(

My cliques couldn't go cuz we actually had formal outing! But i didn't go. Feel so bad and guitly :( Well, i promised after my exams the first thing is to go out with them! Especially Vanessa and Adam!

 And the rest, prolly becuz it was too last minute.

Kay, let's talk about that day.

We went to eat, then bowling? HAHAHAHA.

But guess what happen during bowling?! Went i was swinging my arms to the back and ready to swing it to the front, the ball dropped and roll back wards. Do you know how embarrassed i was?! ALL OF MY FRIENDS LAUGHED AT ME. And i could see from my side view that the few teenagers saw. GOSH! The ball is so oily! And i have sweaty palms alsooooo. Grrrrrrrrr. BUT I'M NOT THE ONLY ONEEEE. HEHEHE. We played 2 games. I embarrassed myself in the first game. And the same thing happened to MY SISTER. Immediately, instead of me laughing, i shouted 'YAY IM NOT THE ONLY ONEE!' Hehehhehehehehehehe. 

Yeah, but not all played :( Rouying went home very early cuz her mum wants her to come home, then after playing 2 games, Jingyin and Debbie went to accompany Theresia to buy presents for her friends, and the boys went to eat i guess? Then my sister and i went to meet our parents at Paris..... don't know what. It's also at Marina Square, and we had our dinner there. The food there is still ohkay. But friggin 200 bucks -.- HAHA then went home after that! 

Didn't put on eyeliner cuz my eyeliner went out of ink and i didn't know -.- FUCK THIS SHIT.

Had fun! I wanna bowl and pool someday! But nobody wants to bowl with me :( Vanessa and Theresia doesn't like to bowl, BUT THEY LIKE TO POOOOOL! So you kinda know what's my plan already huh? But he haven't pool with me yet :( I'm waiting for that day. ♥

It's Valentine. Or rather, it's the 14th.

It's Valentine today. Nothing speciaaaaaaal. Yeah i wish he would love me. It's the 14th today. 5th month i confessed. Sad. BUT. ILOVEHIMMM♥

1) Polarbearrr

Why can't we be together? I know i'm toooo young. But if i'm 1 year older, 

will you like me? 

Will you be together with you? 

Will you mind?

Will youu?

2)Myself

Gahhh, hahah just posting this picture for fun. Cuz it's a lot like me.

School is..... Not ohkay. I don't understand why. I study my ass off everyday, i can say i'm more hardworking than last year. But you wanna know how much i fucking score for my amath? I got a 4 out of 50. Cool right? And i was quite confident for myself before the paper. 

Physics, i don't even know the basics of measurement and how to read a venier caliper.

Bio. I'm not good at memorizing.

Pure chem. Manageable.

Lit. I. Don't. Know. How. To. Elaborate.

SS. Manageable.

Mt. No comments.

English. No comments.

Emaths. Hanging on a thread.

Yeah, so i'm always asking Natasha for help. And she ended up laughing becuz i can get answers like. p= 2psquare.

SERIOUSLY??

Went for braces appointment yesterday! Dentist put power chain and elastic, it's super painful you know. I can't even talk and feel no pain -.- As a result, was emcee for today's total defence day program with manpreet. Made a mistake on announcing the wrong part cuz i want to finish everything ASAP. Urgh forget it, i embarrassed myself already. 

3) SO. Let's talk about today.

LET'S TALK ABOUT MY BELOVED PANDA.

Happy Valentines Panda! It's been 8 months since we are together right?! Time pass so fast with you. So fast! We've been through ups and downs. And when i say UPS and DOWNS. I really mean it. We quarrel like nobody's business, and we joke like nobody's business. ILOVEYOUUU. Don't ever ever leave me ohkay?!

AWWWW. Guess what?! Who gave me thiss? MY PANDA!! When i came down to the canteen, he was like, wait. Then when i turned around, he gave this to meeeeeeeee! HOW SWEET! Panda can also be sweet sometimes right?!! :D I didn't really expect it. Hahahaha. Thankyou Panda. Looking forward to our 1year anniversary baby.♥

Then went to eighteen chefs with Vanessa after school! HEHEHE. Adam couldn't tag along cuz he has prefects meeting :( The rest were busy as well. At least i'm not alone on my Valentine!  I don't mind being a lesbian for this bitch. Im just joking. HAHAHAH. It's fun talking and spending time with her. I guess she's one of the FEW people in my life who i feel comfortable talking to. If you know her, DON'T. DON'T. Don't hurt her.

Let's talk about my friends.

Adam- All the best for you and her! HAHAHAHAH

Vanessa- Find your true love bitch.

Theresia- TELL ME WHO IS TOMATO YOU IDIOT.

Carmen- HAHAHA, you're forever complaining girl!

Manblaq- Go marry your justin bieber!

Fiona- Don't be upset. I don't know how to cheer you up. I never been to where you've been. What i can say is, you are a strong girl.

Wendy- Last long dear.

Shermin-Hahaha, nothing to tell you. I only know you will marry your kpop. -.-

Angiela- HIHIHI. Goodluck to your ahem! CONFESS.

Wileen- HEYYOU. HIHIHIHI. Hope you're fine. HAHAHAHA.

ILOVEPOLARBEAR K. Forever and always. I'll look forward to the day where you and i will be together. ♥In my dreams. Right?

Been busyyyyy

Pinkypinky promise. Don't ever break my trust for you ohkay? That hurts alot.

Feels so good to see you in school.♥

1)SchoolSchoolSchool.

Heheheh, i drew that last year during literature in ms nora class with Carmen.

And this year in English class, Carmen and I end up in the same group again. Took picture of OUR board. SPOT POLARBEAR!♥

Muahahahahhahaha.

Yeap, so lastlast tuesday, stayed back with LinXuan, Lyra and Celine to decorate the class!

LYRA DREW THAT.

MINEMINE! POLARBEARRRRR

School is still ohkay. I can see him everyday :) Without having to worry that we won't talk anymore.  Sometimes when we change classes, i MIGHT be able to see him too! Hehehhe. I give him wake up call every morning. SO CUTE RIGHT. I mean him.

But i officially hate Tuesday and Thursday! :( I can't see him. Our recess timing is not the sameeeeeee. NOT FAIR.

Homework, is of course... Alot. Including tuitions and alllllllll.

2)Him

Hehehe. Study hard alrightty? I know you won't see this, but still..... I want to go JC with you! If not, POLY! Mustmust. ILOVEYOUUUUU. I wanna hang out with you soon :(

3)Chanel, Me, myself and I

Did the Chanel you knew, changed? I don't know. Friends and most of the people who i know. Told me that. I don't know why. I accidentally shouted at Wendy cuz i was pissed off. I'm so sorry Wendy. I sincerely apologise. I didn't know what happen to me. When i came to my sense and asked Manpreet if i really shouted at Wendy, that's when i realise what i have done. I'm going through counseling. I hope i can cope. Counselor is 'healing' my wounds. I hope i already recovered from knowing the person who i thought i can trust, actually betrayed me. Longlonglong ago. Well, that's all! Morning run tomorrow with mummy and chloe! Then tuition.........

OHHH WAIT. ON 14TH WHICH IS NEXT TUESDAY, WILL BE THE 5TH MONTH I CONFESSED. AND IT'S VALENTINES DAY. SAD. BUT YEAHHHHHHH I LOVE HIMMMMMM. Alotalotalot.